HHP
‘FROM the depths of darkness and despair, hip hop artist HHP pulled himself back into the light.
While talking about his new music video, Pasopa on Cliff Central, HHP – whose real name is Jabulani Tsambo – opened up to Gareth Cliff about his year of hell in 2015.
Cliff commented that HHP seemed like a changed man‚ even calling him “liberated” and HHP agreed‚ explaining that 2015 was a dark year which saw him attempt to take his life three times.
The musician who married his long-time love, Lerato Sengadi last month confessed that he had been so low that he tried to kill himself three times!
After seeing a “shrink” HHP said the sessions left him feeling lethargic because of an increase in his medication and nothing was truly resolved. It was then that he flirted with the idea of suicide.
“I was thinking while my policies (life insurance) are still active‚ let me just go out. Fifteen minutes in the car. Hose pipe‚ whatever. I’m listening to Frank Ocean in the car.
“I’m thinking 15 minutes I should be done. An hour-and-a-half later‚ nothing happens. I’m listening to the song on repeat now. I get out the car. It’s time to take the kids to school,” said HHP.
After that failed attempt‚ HHP said he borrowed a friend’s car to try again.
“So now I’m thinking maybe because my car is a hybrid. Let me try with an old car. I get a friend of mine’s old car. I take the hosepipe from his car to mine. I try again. It doesn’t work.”
In his third and final attempt‚ HHP again turned to a suicide assist website‚ which apparently suggested using helium as a form of suicide.
“The last attempt‚ I’m fighting with my girlfriend. They tell me to try helium. I get the helium tank… I turn this thing on and I’m thinking
‘This is finally going to work’.
“The wifey has just gone to her friend’s house and by the time she gets back‚ I’ll be cold. The website says it should work in eight minutes and it’s an hour- and-12-minutes later now‚ so I start cursing,” said HHP.
HHP explained that while it did not work‚ he was already thinking of how he would explain his altered voice to his girlfriend when she arrived home. It was then that he had the thought that changed everything.
“This voice came to me and said ‘Dude‚ if you really want to die‚ you need to live. If you really want to die‚ you need to do that s**t that you’ve always wanted to do and you’ve always been scared of doing and one of those is speaking my mind.”
Now he’s so determined to avoid falling back into hell that he’s doing what it takes to stay positive.
The revelations come just two weeks after he deactivated his Twitter account over “toxic” people.
“Right now‚ the environment is so toxic. Even if I say ‘I feel like a peanut butter and jam sandwich’ someone will say ‘Oh‚ so you hate Cassper‚ now?” HHP said.
“I understand that Twitter is a currency‚ but half of my followers don’t even listen to me. I’m starting afresh. I’m known as the artist formerly known as HHP. I’m Jabba. I’ve always been Jabba.” – DailySun/TimesLive